Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in rufiosaur's LiveJournal:

Sunday, December 4th, 2005
6:55 pm	Honestly my life is wearing to a single thread. My school life is terrible, not socially, but educationally, im falling behind. Its not out of my lack of abilitly, but of my constant lazyness. My family life is gone completely, i no longer have steady parents or have people that really care about me. The only real thing i have left even close to family is my friends, and i can only trust them to a certain degree, i mean, my friends arent going to be here for me forever. I think that having a girlfriend may help in a way, giving me someone to wake up for every day, someone that i know cares for me, but i have trouble finding a girl to be with, its damned near impossible for me. I hate waking up every morning and feeling useless, and not wanting to get out of bed knowing that today is going to be the same routine as yesterday. My life right now is at a forked road, and i have to make a desision, and its one that i shouldnt have to dwell on, kinda like choosing the light road from the dark road but for some reason something keeps making me choose the wrong path. Meh, hopefully things will change, im sure none of you have any idea what it feels like waking up every morning and feeling like you dont belong on this planet anymore. Todays a new day, maybe ideas will shine brightly in my head giving my life slightly new meaning. Current Mood: melancholy Current Music: Shirts and Gloves-Dashboard Confessional (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 3rd, 2005
6:19 pm	HAHAHAHAHAHA. so yeah, i got to go over to my cuban friend kyms new house for the first time, and my bfffffffffffffffffffffffffffffe michelle and kerrie came, and we sang kareoke or whatever. then we went up to kyms room and i tickled all of them and then kym made this weird ass face like the girl from the exorsist out of nowhere and michelle kerrie and i were ROFL LIKE WHOAH. bahhahaha. I HAVENT LAUGHED SO HARD IN A LOOOOOOOOONG TIME. omfg. i almost forgot how much i love these girls. ill update a lil later. peaceeeeeeeeeeee. (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 24th, 2005
10:31 am	HOLLYWOOD WE'RE NEVER GOING DOWN! ; OMGZ OMGZ. Last Night was BOMB BRUH. I got to go see Chiodos with Andrea, Dan, Teah, Collette and others. Chiodos opened, and they pretty much rocked my world. Best live performance ive ever seen by a band so far, and ive seen some good 'uns. I pretty much have the best friends in the world, and many of them. Ones that stay true to themselves....unlike other kids *cough*glamkids*cough* Well, im off. Ill update again later today after i get pics from last night. Peaceeeeeeee.<3 Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Hollywood Undead-No. 5 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, October 31st, 2005
11:02 pm	HALLOWWWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEN halloween.....was so fun......i dressed up as a hardcore straightedge kid. baha. omg, its the last day im going to be able to leave my house for a while though ughhhhhh. i like 2 girls, isnt that fun. uhhhm...i saw both of them tonight. :]] eep. i like having crushes my band is doing better. wheee, but we cant do anything more until i get of restriction boooooooo anyways, enough of my ramblings, im tired. nighttttttt. Current Mood: tired Current Music: ZZzZzZZzZzZZ (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, October 24th, 2005
4:22 pm	whoah. my life kinda is slipping through my fingers like sand. its impossible to catch up to how fast everythings moving when i myself am at a standstill. i need someone to pick me up and carry me the rest of the way in order to get back to where i was before, but i learn friends dont come in without a wall coming down. im usually too afriad to bring down my wall and let people in but some people i just let in wayy too easily. i think its time for my wall to go up and stay up for a while, until i learn to trust myself. itll be just like old times. oh how i miss the old days. i like someone, alot, sometimes i think that if they would just open their eyes, they'd realize that they have something here. i wanna be able to give my heart and soul to a girl, one girl. i want her to take it and never give it back. i just need to gain enough self confidence and push myself towards my goal...something i rarely do. i love you. Current Mood: uncomfortable (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 18th, 2005
8:37 pm	ajosidfja;slkdfj#^@#%@ I need a girlfriend. Period. I want to be able to go out in this rain with her and hold her for the longest time. I wanna be able to dance with her for a little while, kick up water. Then come inside && make us hot chocolate and just cuddle under a really big blanket. OMG. Girlofmydreams, find me. Current Mood: numb Current Music: Car Underwater-Armor for Sleep <3 (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 12th, 2005
7:45 pm	Oh shit! Today was pretty awesome. ha ha. Andrew came bye and picked myself and Graham up for the first time since way before his accident which rocked! haha. When i got to school, my friend Dieane let me borrow her 250$ Louis Vuitton glasses, which are now MINE haha. My two crushes have been reduced to one singular girl. hmm.=]] On the bus, Christian, myself and Kurtass were taking pictures with Kurtass and my phones. EMO styles haha. Kurtass was amazed bye the fact that I could record him on my phone bahaha. After i got off the bus, i was surprised to see my dad driving down our street towards me. He pulled a u-turn, got out of the car, handed me the keys, got in the passenger seat and told me to drive. He let me drive allllll the way down to the Craig Ranch golf course where we proceeded to play...what other than...GOLF! haha. How random is that? Anyways, I have to get back to watching the Chicago White Sox do their thing. haha. Bye Bye. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: FFTL-Secrets Don't Make Friends (Comment on this)
Tuesday, October 11th, 2005
2:48 pm	AHHHH I can't believe i'm still going to be grounded until November 1st....that means no The Higher show friday night...no Fright Dome Saturday....no Halloween....no Coheed....omg I have TWO..count 'um TWO crushes. One of which i shouldn't be worried about considering she has a crush on someone else?:-/ Anyways, my cousin Amber just got a brand new camera, so that means I get to start taking new pictures soon. :]] I've kinda sorta run out of stuff to say. :-/. haha. Oh yeah,if you haven't seen my band The Breaking Scene you should check us out. haha. I'll probably update later tonight so...yeah. PEACE YALL. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, October 9th, 2005
9:29 pm	First Entry! Whoooooo first entry! bahah. Today was lame, sitting around the house...bored, but then again, what else do you do when you're grounded? haha. I'll try and make this little puppy a bit flashier so you all can actually enjoy looking at it. haha. As for now, i'm hitting the sack, im way to tired && have school tomorrow. Peace bros! haha. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Underoath-Down, Set, Go! (1 Comment |Comment on this)